Last week we had a blast of spring/summer weather and I've come to realize, more and more, that I'm not a winter person. I like spring through fall, but I can live without winter.
The plans to move to SA have hit a snag in that there are politics going on that are making it very risky to take my money and invest it in South Africa. For those of you not in the know, there is a politician, one I feel is as dirty as they come, that is talking about nationalizing banking and mining in the country. When that happens, foreign investment drys up and international companies don't invest in a country where they won't see a return on their investment. The argument for nationalization is that it will distribute the wealth more evenly across the population. Something I think is needed. I just don't agree with the method. It leads to corruption and I fear that if I come and invest in something like real estate, my property could get nationalized and I would be left with nothing.
My long term goal remains the same that I'd like to move to someplace warmer, but It will have to be on hold for a while.
I read this great book last week called The Happiness Project. It was really interesting in that it said in order to be happy you have to try and be happy. Even fake it if you have to. Soon enough you will be.
Go here if you want to read more about it and her blog. I picked up some good hints. (I figured out that cleaning my closet makes you happy on my own)
There are people in this world who love winter and people who don't. There are people who put up with it for a set number of years and then all of the sudden just decide to chuck it all and live in paradise, where they may have less money but wont get the chill of an early morning damp snow. I wonder when my expiry date is. When will I have had enough? 39? 40? 50?
Getting to the gym this morning was a pain in the ass. It was snowy, it was cold and the workout was way tougher than it needed it to be. My new stalker was there too, beard and all. (I don't think he's stalking me, it just makes me feel attractive and it's only been 2 days) Let's call him Ralph. Ralph has a nice grey hoody that I like but don't really need. Ralph has nice legs. Ok I'm already sick of Ralph.
The diet is not what it should be but I've essentially given up McDonalds now.
I'm taking a little weekend getaway that may be the last getaway for a while now as money gets tight. I may have to turn up the heat at home and pretend it's Hawaii.
I've decided I really don't like other people. I'm a loner, I'll come out and say it, but seriously there are some fucked up people out there and I'd rather not be a part of anyone's drama.
The boif and I get sucked into so much drama we get exausted just thinking about it.
No more.
I hit the gym last night and this morning, which will make up for the miss on Friday. The gym was decently busy for 6am and the regulars were there perhaps to get a last chance workout in before they go on a week long eating and drinking binge. J and A were there. J is getting amazing abs remarkably quick and the makes me jealous. Nothing I can do about it but play my own game. I'm 8-9 years his senior and when he hits 35, all hell will break loose. All of the sudden his metabolism will slow to nothing and those 3 beers he has on Friday night will hang around his belly like a noose.
I found a new blog..SilverCloud, which reading yesterday made me sooo horny my BF and I went at it for over an hour last night. I am a very visual and audio guy. I love nothing more than hearing and seeing and it gets me turned on. I used to by those small paperback books with all the gay hook-up fiction. Nothing turned me on faster.
BTW-My bf loves my bigger pecs. It's making me think of getting a nipple piercing.
I'm at the gym today and realize that I need to step it up.
The defining moment..a look in the gym mirror. No one is there, so many regulars are skipping workouts. J is there though, but I dont expect that to last. (No sign of creepy arab guy who I can't figure out if he is perving me or my trainer)
Abs, arms and ass, especially the ass, all need work. I see a lot of squats in my future and a lot less ice cream.
The gym gets quiet over the holidays. This is when I feel most energized to step it up and push beyond my comfort zone. I may even double up workouts tonight and try and push past my sore throat.
Abs By Forty Update: I promised before pics, They are coming. I weighed myself yesterday. 180lbs Pretty much what I expected. I dont expect to lose weight, just fat.
Work work work. Type type type.
Boss is gone.
The task I have to do sucks.
Hence I’m doing a blog entry and surfing the web!
So I was at the gym. It was cardio day.
A was there with his girlfriend who didn’t want to be there. A has nice arms, A has great abs..I can’t see them but I can tell they are there under the shirt. A has crap legs..twigs.
J was there, sans GF. J has nice arms, not as defined as A, but good. J’s abs are hidden behind some fat much like myself, but I’ve seen him in the shower and he doesn’t need abs or arms if ya know what I mean.
I have a feeling both are bastards to their respective girlfriends. I don’t know this for sure..Well maybe in one instance.
The old Italian was there, the blond dandy was there and that was about it for interesting folks.
It’s amazing how quiet the gym gets when the holidays arrive. Just when everyone should kick it up.
Worked the arms a little bit too at the end of my workout. The kid with the enormous head was there too. He has a tiny frame, but man the kid needs to cut his hair so he doesnt look so awkward.
No drama, nada.
Like the nipple piercing on this guy
This is what I want.. on the left bicep anyways...
Ever notice that we get less sleep on Sundays? The excitment of Mondays does it to me every time. Regardless of how little sleep you get on Sunadys you just never have enough to get to bed and get to sleep right away.
I thought I was gonna get a good nights sleep last night but the ex ruined it by telling me on the phone to 'lighten up'. Why? ---I told him I wasn't planning on putting up a tree this year.I kept my mouth shut as much as I could. Now is not the right time, but I stewed about it for a while. My day will come. It has before, it will again. I have this nasty habit of being right.
Mondays involve meetings, meeting and follow up from more meetings. In bewteen I went to Best Buy with a coworker and bought 3 DVD's. Sahara, the Ocean's 11,12 & 13 box set and season 5 of Corner Gas. It's the end of the day now and my throat is sore, I have a bit of a headache and the bleeding 'seems' to have stopped. My knees are sore due to not working out which will be fixed Tuesday and Wednesday.
How much do you want to bet that I will be in bed before 9?
My Saturday is promising to be boring but relaxing. I've watched Ocean's Thirteen for about the 20th time. I watched a movie called It's a Boy Girl thing. (actually quite a good movie, that made me cry. BTW when did I turn into a wuss?) All before 10am.
I should pick up my dry cleaning, buy a newspaper and maybe some drug store stuff. Laundry & a nap and a ppv movie could also be in my future too.
I'm just a bit restless today, I'm pissed off that I'm not healing up as fast as I want, I'm pissed off that I can't go to the gym and I'm pissed that I'm craving tonnes of bad food. I'm pissed off that I made a mistake at work a few weeks ago that came back to haunt me.
One of my biggest weakness is that I tend to be really hard on myself. When I screw up I mentally punish myself and I never see the positive side of myself. I'm not the best one to take my own advice of rolling with the punches.
And if I have to see that bowflex comerical about the guy giving all his fat clothes to his fat friends, I'm going to get all his fat friends together and we'll all gang rape him. Dear lord can we be a bit more undersatnding about overweight people in this society? They are human beings and need some dignity and respect.
I'm stil waiting for the recession. Didn't see it at the mall, dont really see it anywhere besides in my investments.
I woke up this morning with a cold.
Then I came downstairs to find that I was out of cereal! I must have forgotten since the last time I poured cereal for myself on Sunday.
Then I realized why I was out of cereal. I didn't go shopping. I could have gone shopping but I got lazy and bought Swiss Chalet on the way home. Their chicken is good.
So sometime today, I should really stop into the store and buy food. Then visit my parents before Karma slaps me down for not helping them build their Christmas tree.
At some point I should consider that this cold may have come on because I have not been eating all my fruits and veggies. Why? No food in the house!
I'm going to stop shaving my chest for a week or so, and see how it looks.
As my quest for a tattoo continues I am set on getting a tattoo on my ass.
It will cover a small scar that I have and I think it will look cool. It aslo secretly describes me as I always try and be the star in every situation. Maybe this will remind me that I dont have to act like the star to be the star.
I also want to thank Brent Corrigan's ass which was the inspiration. Steal with pride.
Oops it's been a few days eh?
Work? Crazy
The ex- Not having a good go of things. Family issues.
I'm muddling through. A bit of working out and a bit of cheating on the diet. Not horrible just ice cream and oreo cookie chunks. If not I will do errands and nap a lot and try and grow my hair a bit longer in the meantime.
I need an inspirational pic and Zac fits the bill. Thanks Just jared. Thanks Zac for having a movie out and stripping down to try and get all the gay guys to come to your movie. Oh also thanks for starving yourself and working out so much. Cheers,
My reality fixation really focuses on Big Brother in the summer.
This is Jesse. He was on the show. There were rumours he was deeply closeted.
Want to know what it takes to build a body like that? It takes giving up developing your intelect or any sense of self. He is the perfect example of what it means when you dont have a balance in your life.
It's hard work to break the habit of procrastinating.
Every day is a stuggle. It's my biggest fault.
The Prayer
Anthony Callea: Anthony Callea
Anthony is my aussie boyfiend. Cute and gay. (****)
Hot Stuff (Let's Dance)
Craig David: Hot Stuff (Let's Dance)
So catchy.. Bowie and Craig David
